CYA~ (in a sense)

lol, i was just exempted from.. nevermind. no money now.

2nd, they said that their target age was 20+. so.. got to talk between the doctors more.

3rd, they got to look more into my case, since it is very, VERY unusual for people of my age to be so sick.

so now im back to my old med b4 any development.

oh ya, regarding my 1st point, i meant that i was exempted (as said by doctor) for NS. no money from NS pay now..

and so.. CYA GUYS. serve the nation well. lol, kinda early.

I am lucky! Or am I?

lol, went to c doc yesterday. now haf to take new med.. and this new med is very expensive. how expensive? 1 course of treatment is $6k. no idea 1 course is how long, but the mention of that amount of money is not funny.

now why am i lucky? heh heh heh.. IM GETTING THE TREATMENT FREE! a specialist doctor at the national cancer center (NCC) has gotten a grant to study the med. i fulfill most (or all) of the requirements. well the doctor at TTSH said it like i would get chosen for sure, so i have high hopes :D

and why am i unlucky? it includes chemotherapy.. gah. nevermind... I AM STRONG!

HELLO.

does anyone have any job openings for someone below 16? minimum pay of $5/hr?

dreams when i slp

omg i think i mite have a lot of pent up anger. i keep dreaming that im a very angry person banging on tables. not just once lol.

no idea why man.. i dont feel angry in the day. only when im slping. maybe the more immature side of me still cant accept life as it is eh.

moral of the story: dont piss me off or.. well, we dont know what would happen.

I can do sports!

I FEEL STRONG!

Looking at blogs and other stuff.

lol, i come online almost everyday, unless im in hospital or something. then, i visit blogs while/after/during games. i always start out with the cls blog lol. den i "branch out" into my blog and then the links in my blog. sometimes i go to the blogs of my classmates. then i c some jc students' msn nicks going like.. "OMFG ITS OVER".

man, looking at these stuff, i keep thinking about how im getting held back. its more of mixed feelings when looking at these. i gained and lost stuff. also changed a bit.

i used to like sky blue and purple. now i feel they are pretty gay and i dont really like any color. its like im stuck in black and white. im not emo, i do see colors. just that they are not that 'bright' now lol.

i dont know why i typed that lol. anyway.. not everybody updates their blog everyday. even though i know that, i still visit some blogs a few times a day lol. guess im really bored. i should try blog-hopping one day.

some things are starting to become numb. like doctors going: "omfg u got cancer?" and then "how old are you?", "u smoke?". haha. last time i would reply more. now, its more of one-liners. tired of explaining. and also, public transport. well.. gah nvm. im also getting more and more passive with stuff. i wonder if i can cope in school in my ultra-dependent state now. i still miss my dog. haha, guess it's becoz i put her as my msn display picture.

but there are some things that i am not numb to. instead, i feel dam fed-up. food vendors. got 1 dam ch**by* auntie. it was a long story lah and i lazy to type out. but she tot i fking stealing her chilli leh. first time hor, she laugh those type of cb laugh. coz my maid was beside me. 2nd time, i slow abit onli leh. i was like choosing what i want to put into my vegetarian beehoon. i was with my mum. that ch**by* auntie see me onli, call the person behind me. dam im quite petty i guess.

anyway i watched samurai 7 recently. i watch until last 2 episodes.. missing. wah, hard to find the last 2 sia. wth. but still, i found them and finished the anime. sad anime lol. <-- under "things which i do other than games".

i should start socializing a little. maybe i will begin in runescape. i mean like try to start conversations and maintain it. then maybe.. er.. smile and say "thank you" louder when people serve/clear stuff. or maybe.. instead of typing these out, i should say it out. i havent been very good in conversations. sometimes i just end up saying something stupid or hurting someone. i don't know, but the whole of my family seem to be able to socialize very well.

gah idk. now i got to try and finish a cup of black chinese medicine.

Another Picture.

Picture

there, picture

13th November

Today is the first anniversary of me entering Tan Tock Seng Hospital. TTSH hor, not when I first discovered my illness. Went to have a thorax scan today, turned out that some of the stuff in my lungs had grown again. Well, not so bad I guess, since previously they told us the medicine had effect (shrunk it down). Just need to eat more medicine to probably cancel it out or something. Hope nothing grows in my brain again. Fits are scary.

Anyway, tagged by darling Khai.

My Top

10 Most Favourite Foods>>
- Sambal Kangkong.
- Minced Meat Noodle. Depends though, some stalls are.. lol.
- Most types of chicken meat.
- Sin Chow Chow Mien.. which is some kind of bee hoon.
- Beef.
- Some types of fish.
- Yam Paste.
- McSpicy/Zinger.
- Fried stuff which I hardly eat. Like chicken wings. I like it, but I seldom eat it.
- Bee Hoon. Any type I guess.

10 Things I Love Doing >>
- Using the computer, like playing RuneScape and surfing websites.
- Looking at people. If you choose to think in a certain way, it's your problem lol.
- Using the PSP.
- Thinking of stuff.
- Eating. lol.
- Watch movies.
- I don't really know what I love doing. Ahhhhhhh.

5 things I Love doing when I'm happy >>

- Nothing much, except different facial expressions or movements.

5 things I love doing when I'm EMO >>

- No idea.

5 things I wish to happen >>

- No more sickness.
- Stop drinking bitter herbal medicine.
- World Peace.
- Stock prices to rise.
- Fried food to be healthy and fat-free.
- ToTo to be somehow rigged in my favour.
- High metabolism.
Oops, over 5 things I guess.

5 types of guys/girls I adore >>

- Pretty.
- Innocent.
- Kind.
- Caring.
- Hot.

5 most addicted playlist >>

- Inuyasha Soundtrack.
- Some O2Jam songs.

5 people I wish to tag >>

- Don't think anyone wants to continue this lol.



Haha, it's still afternoon.

my bro makes breakfast.

haha, today my bro tried making some "roti john" while i watched. i so pro hor, see him make breakfast for both of us. yep, it was for breakfast. 1st time making.

yesterday night he went out with my father to get ingredients. they bought barbeque sauce, curry powder, onions and cheese. just about that, coz we got lots of eggs at home. we decided to use normal white bread. ok, he ended up forgetting the cheese when cooking.

i was the stand-one-side-watch-and-talk guy. haha ok so my bro heat up the wok. yea, we used a wok. haha, 1st time dunno wan to use what mah. ok, we had 4 eggs so.. 8 slices of bread. fillings stated up there, with a lil pepper.

first one.. egg got fried. we assumed that the egg would just stick onto the bread if we pressed hard, coz thats we usually saw indian store ppl doing. but we fried the egg too much. so my bro just took it up, put it onto the bread and squeezed the sauce and add curry powder. so, it became a barbecue sauce onion egg sandwich. i ate this. needed more sauce.

2nd piece.. almost the same i tink, my bro ate it. i tink he turned the fire lower on this. needed more sauce too.

3rd piece.. even lower fire, lol. the top was a lil.. watery when it came up. lol this time, my bro put more sauce. a lot more. i ate it. haha sure, at first it was nice then it turned a bit sour. too much sauce hahhaha.

4th.. i dont know. about the same as the 3rd i guess. ah.

hmm, the roti john wasnt really the usual roti john lol. it was more like the type of home-made pizza that people make. white bread and the toppings. lol.

and so.. my bro made breakfast for two.

6th nov

its 6th nov today!

2nd november

its a sunday and its the day after my father's birthday. if u read the previous post, im supposed to go have a walk at east coast with my family. auntie and uncle fetched everyone and stuff then we went over. haha, mum bought some muffins yesterday so that we could have some kind of light snack there today. so, i was supposed to have a slow and nice walk while my bro went cycling with my brother. 1 aunt went to jog a little and another aunt walked with me, my father and mother. my uncle couldnt walk too far as his leg was injured so he sat and breathed in the air.

walked only about halfway of the jetty. i couldnt tahan, lol. ahhhh, because i seldom go there 1, i could compare. last time i could have walked so much more lol. well, i did manage to sweat a little and get some sunlight. oh ya, managed to see some police catching a cobra. u noe, the type that flatten their heads when threatened. well, considering having seen snakes a few times and only seen police catching snake once (i tink), it was rather entertaining.

so we walked back to the car. went to some coffeeshop in bedok with the famous kway teow and hokkien mee. tink more ppl buy hokkien mee. eh, but my 2 aunts + my mum introduced me the porridge. then i was like.. a little tired, even though we had some rest in the car. resting isnt a quick thing for me now lol. then.. aiya, i didnt really want to get up and look around so i said "got century egg + pork porridge anot?". i mainly wanted the century egg, but the way they replied, it was like.. only century egg OR pork. so i chose century egg lor. then later, my mum came back and told me that they didnt have century egg. then at this moment i suddenly enter my confused state, cannot think properly. !#$#@%%$%@!!!!!!! then she asked whether i wanted pork instead. i couldnt think, i couldnt reply properly. i said "yes". ahhhhhhhhhh. i didnt want porridge already, coz no century egg. but i said yes!! then when the meat porridge came, got pig liver!! argh! in my hate list! and like 4-5 pieces of it!

the pig liver.. it looked liked they just popped it into the porridge and let it cook coz i scooped one up with some blood -.- wah lau. haha, being the fat-ass kid that i am, i passed it on to my aunt. nobody wanted more than their own share lol, coz pig liver sux!!

another auntie bought fish porridge. uncle bought wanton mee. bro bought fried mixed noodles. mum ate kway chap. father bought fried kway teow. my cousin bought nasi lemak. then misc. stuff where people shared stuff.. kway teow and dunno what. my father, brother and i ate soya beancurd.

lol, heard from my bro that 1 yong tau fu store there was selling 7 food items + noodles = $1.50. 1 extra ingredient = $0.15. got another store selling abt same size but $0.30. lol, he say queue was quite long. and remember the chinese show where they gave hawker centre cooks a boost? the japanese one was there, except it wasnt open. pity, got to go in the afternoon next time.

after that, we went to mustafa centre to buy stuff. bought a few stuff. shoes mainly. i didnt really have the mood to walk about in that cramped space so i just sat down. would have looked around for some shoes though, if i had the mood. but they were in the sport shoes area anyway and i didnt need sport shoes. would have had more to write about mustafa if i hadnt just sat there most of the time.

we went to a hawker centre at lavender for lunch. had chicken rice and since a total of 5 ppl wanted to eat chicken rice, we bought a set. my father had turtle soup and my bro had pork noodles. lol they 2 noe how to choose sia. mum had fishball meepok. then we had some yong tau fu to share.

hmm, my father came back and had stomachache. he suspects it was from the wedding yesterday. at hilton hotel leh wah lau.. scallop with veggie. why that dish? coz he and his friends could smell something when the waitress opened the tingy. lol strong smell of "got-something-wrong". but the smell gradually went away, so he juz ate 1.. coz if dont eat is like.. dont give face lol. and scallop usually shouldnt have anything wrong lol. but wait tmr his colleagues take MC coz some juz eat -.-

1st november

my father's birthday today =D. but.. ah, we couldnt celebrate it at night. his friend's daughter was gonna get married off and he was invited to the wedding. so, we celebrated in the afternoon! we went over to the marketplace (aka central to pasir ris ppl) and bought a 1/2kg tiramisu cake. haha, actually idk where it was really tiramisu about, since i couldnt taste anyting wine-ish abt it. guess it was juz a chocolate cake wif a chocolate sign "tiramisu" on it. lol. eh, we did give the maid a slice hor.

she took an interest in the cake and tried to take photos lol. then she dunno why took a few dark dark photos den my mum fed up, say next time then ask from me. coz it was like.. whole family standing there waiting for her mah lol. eh, we did give the maid a slice hor.













going out on a to bedok jetty aka marine parade aka east coast tomorrow with my 2 aunties, 1 uncle, 1 cousin and my family. eh, singapore roads i dunno, so when i was told marine parade/bedok jetty, i tot it would be some place that i nv go b4. then end up.. is east coast. lmao. tink my bro got abit confused too. eh, is like, nv drive/sit car often wont know east coast as marine parade what lol. actually i tot marine parade is near marina bay sia xDDDDDDDD.