Looking at blogs and other stuff.

lol, i come online almost everyday, unless im in hospital or something. then, i visit blogs while/after/during games. i always start out with the cls blog lol. den i "branch out" into my blog and then the links in my blog. sometimes i go to the blogs of my classmates. then i c some jc students' msn nicks going like.. "OMFG ITS OVER".

man, looking at these stuff, i keep thinking about how im getting held back. its more of mixed feelings when looking at these. i gained and lost stuff. also changed a bit.

i used to like sky blue and purple. now i feel they are pretty gay and i dont really like any color. its like im stuck in black and white. im not emo, i do see colors. just that they are not that 'bright' now lol.

i dont know why i typed that lol. anyway.. not everybody updates their blog everyday. even though i know that, i still visit some blogs a few times a day lol. guess im really bored. i should try blog-hopping one day.

some things are starting to become numb. like doctors going: "omfg u got cancer?" and then "how old are you?", "u smoke?". haha. last time i would reply more. now, its more of one-liners. tired of explaining. and also, public transport. well.. gah nvm. im also getting more and more passive with stuff. i wonder if i can cope in school in my ultra-dependent state now. i still miss my dog. haha, guess it's becoz i put her as my msn display picture.

but there are some things that i am not numb to. instead, i feel dam fed-up. food vendors. got 1 dam ch**by* auntie. it was a long story lah and i lazy to type out. but she tot i fking stealing her chilli leh. first time hor, she laugh those type of cb laugh. coz my maid was beside me. 2nd time, i slow abit onli leh. i was like choosing what i want to put into my vegetarian beehoon. i was with my mum. that ch**by* auntie see me onli, call the person behind me. dam im quite petty i guess.

anyway i watched samurai 7 recently. i watch until last 2 episodes.. missing. wah, hard to find the last 2 sia. wth. but still, i found them and finished the anime. sad anime lol. <-- under "things which i do other than games".

i should start socializing a little. maybe i will begin in runescape. i mean like try to start conversations and maintain it. then maybe.. er.. smile and say "thank you" louder when people serve/clear stuff. or maybe.. instead of typing these out, i should say it out. i havent been very good in conversations. sometimes i just end up saying something stupid or hurting someone. i don't know, but the whole of my family seem to be able to socialize very well.

gah idk. now i got to try and finish a cup of black chinese medicine.